"I've had enough fun, I'm pregnant, are you still willing to marry me?": Don't implicate others in your own troubles

time:2023-01-29 05:06:23source:novahomeonline.com author:Harmonious family
"I've had enough fun, I'm pregnant, are you still willing to marry me?": Don't implicate others in your own troubles

I have wine and tea, if you have a story, come to me. Click "Follow" above, you are my person. 01 Gorky's "My University": "Life doesn't believe in tears, even if you shed tears into pearls, the gray life will not shine because of it." There is a saying that children who can cry have milk to eat. In fact, this statement is too narrow. The reason why a crying child has milk is because there are people around him who give him milk. If there is no one around to give him milk, he will not have milk to cry to death. Although it is said that people need experience to live, some experiences cannot stand scrutiny, and some experiences are only applicable to special circumstances. If a person randomly summarizes an experience, or hears a certain experience, and thinks that he can eat and drink for a lifetime, this person must be stupid. Many people will feel helpless as they grow older. At this time, your life will no longer believe in tears. If you want to change your life, you must give actions that can change your life. Take emotional matters as an example, if a person doesn't love you, what's the use of crying? If you force others to love you, and others ignore you at all, is it useful for you to cry? People who love you won't make you cry, people who don't love you don't care whether you cry or not. 02Since going through two failed relationships, my tears seem to have dried up and I have never cried again. At the same time, I never laughed again, as if there was nothing in this world that would make me smile knowingly. I feel very sad, and sometimes I feel that my destiny is unfair. Others have been in love dozens of times, and they do not delay their pursuit of happiness. And I have only been in love twice, and I have made myself not like a ghost or a ghost. I don't understand why, is it just because there are differences between people? Is the difference that big? My first relationship was not bad, but because I was too impetuous at that time, I couldn't calm down to manage my relationship, and I didn't think about life from a long-term perspective, so I was very easy to get angry and always compared with others. As long as I thought, You can always find your boyfriend's flaws. Every time he was unhappy, he would take his breath away. I tortured him on purpose, he didn't have the same knowledge as me, but always let me. However, I was dissatisfied, and finally betrayed him and got along with a man several years older than me. That person is good at rhetoric, and he is very generous. I was stupid. At that time, I only knew whether I was in love with the surface, so I believed his rhetoric, and wanted to marry him, and finally got pregnant before getting married. That man once promised that he would marry me, that he would make me the happiest woman, and that he always dreamed of a family of three, which led me to believe that pregnancy was a good thing, and that he would marry me soon. However, what I was waiting for was his bad temper. When I saw that he was slow to express his position and always avoided me, I began to worry about Ye Changmeng, so I offered to marry him as soon as possible, but the result was cynicism. He blamed me for being pregnant, for disrupting the rhythm of his life, for calling me a scheming bad woman. 03 I abandoned my ex-boyfriend, and then I was abandoned by my current boyfriend. Maybe this is retribution! Although I knew in my heart that it was all my fault, but I was facing a mess after all, and I wanted to keep the children, so I was eager to find someone to take over, otherwise I would be embarrassed when my stomach grows more and more in love. Second, my inability to feed my children will be the nightmare of my life. Let me find my husband temporarily, but I can't find it at all. I can't just go out on the street and marry someone casually, right? I could risk my face to do it, but who would dare to marry me? People will definitely think I'm crazy! The child's biological father has long since escaped, and I can't find him at all. Even if I can find him, I'm not his opponent at all, and I can't fight him. After thinking about it, all I can think of is my ex-boyfriend. Although I told myself I couldn't find him in every possible way, I was really desperate. He was the only life-saving straw I could think of. I was lucky enough to think that he once loved me so much that if I put down my body and begged him to marry me, he probably wouldn't reject. Originally, I wanted to play a show to deceive him, but when I thought that I had hurt him, I thought it would be better to be sincere, otherwise it might be self-defeating. However, when I told him the truth, I was humiliated by him. 04 I said that I had had enough fun, I was pregnant, I knew I was wrong before, I was sorry to him, and asked him if he would still marry me: "If you are willing, I will be a cow and a horse for you for the rest of your life! I'm done, you don't need to worry about it at all!" His answer made my heart pierce: "You're too shameless, right? Can you be more shameless? Do you know what you're talking about and doing? Have you forgotten why we broke up in the first place? Even if you are not pregnant, I will not forgive you, not to mention that you are pregnant with someone else's child, why do you think I will marry you? Be a horse, what are you talking about to give my parents old age, with your ability, can you do it? If you can do it, you won't come to me and beg me to marry you!" What's worse is that he met his mother, she had long ago Knowing about me and her son, and knowing that I wanted to marry her son, she scolded me badly, saying that I had ulterior motives and wanted to ruin their family: "Unless I die, you should never think about it. Half a step into my house!" The only life-saving straw was gone, and I really had no hope for the future. I thought about dying, but I survived by accident, and the child was gone. I was obviously unintentional, but some people said that I was cruel, even the child in my belly would not be spared. 05 I can only bear the retribution for my own sins. Others are not obliged to share the punishment for me, and I am not qualified to implicate anyone. I don't blame my ex, nor his mother, really. They were right. I was shameless, I was irresponsible to myself, I didn't know how to clean myself, and I played a good hand to a pulp, and I didn't deserve the pity and sympathy of others. I don't want to blame the man who made me pregnant and abandoned me, so what can I do to blame him? I can't beat him, I can't fight him no matter what, even if I want to fight him, I will only kill myself in the end, why bother? I wish someone could tell me what my future looks like. If my future is bright, I can still run a little, no matter how hard or tired I am. But if my future is dark, I don't need to work hard, just messing around every day is just fine. But no one can tell me the answer, I can only find out by myself, until which day is it.
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